Not Quite There Yet

They rode the rest of the way to Mamma Tina’s house in complete silence…When they get there everyone is sleep so Jay help Bey upstairs to her room and gets her settled in the bed

Jay: Good night *heads for the door*

Bey: Where are you going?

Jay: I was gonna sleep on the couch since you didn’t wanna be bothered with me

Bey: C’mon babe…I didn’t mean it like that…I was just really irritated that’s all and you were talkin too much

Jay: I was talking too much by tryna talk about the situation so WE can get over this loss together?

Bey: but you really don’t know how I feel

Jay: need I remind you this is the second time I had to experience the miscarriage of my child? I mean looks to me like I’m doing something wrong here….so don’t try the whole “You don’t know how I feel” attitude….cause I’m pretty sure I know just as much of how you feel if not more

Bey: I’m sorry

Jay: Yea sure you are Bey

Bey: *starts crying*

Jay: *holds her* Babe why are you crying?

Bey: *sniff* Because I’ve been a bitch towards you when you were try *sniff* tyna help me

Jay: It’s okay….really it is but you have to understand that I really do know how you feel right now and you know I’m here for you whenever you wanna finish talking about it okay *kisses her forehead*

Bey: Yea I know

Jay: Okay…imma go now…let you have some space

Bey: But I don’t want you to go…can you stay please?

Jay: Okay…I’ll stay…but let me go check on the kids…I’ll be right back

Jay went downstairs to Solo’s room and checked on the kids….He cracked the door open and peeped in…he saw SJ and Julez hanging off the foot of the bed knocked out…and Solo, Angle, and Brook were all tucked comfortably under the covers…He couldn’t help but laugh at the way they were sleeping….he headed back upstairs to Bey’s room…She was drifting off to sleep so he got in the bed, kissed her on her cheek and told her he loved her….the next morning  Jay woke up to an empty bed….No Bey in sight..he checked for her in the bathroom, she wasn’t there, he went to the reflection room, she wasn’t there, he eventually went downstairs and looked for her…she was not at the house…

Jay: *calls Bey*

Hi, you’ve reached Beyoncé, sorry I couldn’t answer….

Jay: *hangs up*

Solo: Good morning bro

Jay: Hey sis….ummm have you seen Bey?

Solo: No….she not upstairs?

Jay: No I woke up and she wasn’t in bed….I looked all over the house…and her phone went straight to voicemail

Solo: that’s not like her…umm have you asked mamma?

Jay: No….haven’t seen her

Solo: MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!! MMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA COME HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

Tina: Solo why you yellin…you know the kids still sleep

Solo: They’ll be fine

Tina: So what you want?

Jay: Have you seen or heard from Bey?

Tina: No not since y’all left for the hospital

Jay: UGHH….Well I don’t know where she is and I don’t want nothing to happen to her

Solo: She’ll be fine…..trust me…she’ll be back

Jay: Okay….my babies still sleep?

While Jay calm down a little Bey is across town with….(ha ha)

Bey: nice to see you again….couldn’t stop thinking about you since we last saw each other

Lyn: Me either….so what made you come find me?

Bey: Well….LeToya told me you won the battle against cancer…so first I guess I shall say congrats

Lyn: Thank you

Bey: But I just need someone to talk to that’s been through something traumatic

Lyn: Okay….you sure your husband doesn’t have a problem with this?

Bey: He’ll get over it

Lyn: Bey…I’m willing to talk to you but I don’t want any trouble

Bey: I said he’ll be fine…plus what he don’t know won’t hurt him huh?

Lyn: Yea…so what traumatic experience have you been through? Dropping one of your Grammy’s?

Bey: *laughs* No…even though one almost fell and I had a mini heart attack

Lyn: WOW

Bey: but in all seriousness…..i had a miscarriage yesterday…and

Lyn: OMG Bey *hugs her* im so sorry to hear that….how far along were you?

Bey: Almost 3 months

Lyn: WOW and again I’m sorry

Bey: ummm can I be honest with you?

Lyn: of course you can….what’s up boo?

Bey: Boo……you used to call me that

Lyn: I told you…you will forever be my boo

Bey: Yea….okay….maybe this isn’t a good idea

Lyn: What you talking about?

Bey: Sorry I wasted your time Lyn…but I have to go

Lyn: Okay then….i hope everything works out for you

Bey: *heads to her car* Yea me too….Bye Lyn

Lyn: Bye my love

Bey looked at her phone and see she has a missed call from

Jay…she calls him back

Jay: Beyoncé baby where are you?

Bey: I’m on my way back to the house….I ummm I went to the park and watched the ducks

Jay: You went to the park and watched the ducks?

Bey: Yea

Jay: Why you lying?

Bey: I’m not lying

Jay: Yes you are….you don’t like ducks…you go the other direction when they walk towards you

Bey: Oh

Jay: So….when you ready to tell me the truth…I’ll be waiting *hangs up*

Bey finally makes it back to Tina’s house….she walks in and no one is in the house…they all are in the backyard playing with Julez and they kids….even Mathew came over….she just looked at them for a few min then Brooklyn spotted her looking at them

Brook: MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *runs to her* Hey mommy

Bey: Hey baby…how are you?

Brook: I’m otay…I mished you

Bey: AWWEEEE I missed you too baby

SJ: *kisses her* Hey ma

Bey: Hey son

Ang: I mished you mommy

Bey: I missed all of you….so what you guys been up to?

SJ: Pwaying wif daddy, Julez, and Mafhew

Bey: Sounds fun…imma go upstairs and lay down go finish playing with them okay

Ang: okay bye mommy

 Bey go upstairs and laydown….a few min later Jay comes in the room

Jay: So where did you go?

Bey: I don’t want to talk about it

Jay: I don’t care….where you been?

Bey: I said….

Jay: *interrupts* WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN BEYONCÉ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bey: would you keep your voice down….nobody needs to hear our convo

Jay: If you would just answer my question…I’d keep my voice down

Bey: Okay….*mumbles* I went to go see Lyndell

Jay: You went to go see who….speak up I can’t hear you

Bey: Lyndell